okay cool new blog post

when it comes to boys all i have to say is regret. when it comes to kissing, all i can say is that i've only ever kissed 5 boys.


i'm kind of proud of my first kiss. and also not at the same time. this guy always seemed to force me to not like the guy i liked by kissing me, which happened twice. the first time!!!!! the academy is' 'slow down' was playing. idk why but ive kind of got an emotional attachment to that one. he was also the best kisser ever hee hee. on this day guy A made me break up with my boyfriend, so he could kiss me. bad choices bad choices

im kind of hitchin up my belt to the fact that i took this guys kiss virginity. we'd been a 'its complicated' for a few monthes and this kiss inspired him to stop talking to me for 9 monthes. we were fighting over something at formal, and he just kind of leaned in and kissed me for a good two songs. according to very reliable sources, i was said to have the most repulsed face evaa. but the thing is, as bad of a kisser he was i went back on those minutes for about the next year of my tragic teenage loife. even after my best friend stole him from me. =/

i dont even wanna talk about this guy because if i do it just makes me sick and sick and sick and sick. i was desperate for a way to get over guy b, and i was sort of vaguely attracted to him so i said yes, despite his lol cheese personality!! all i can do is regret this whole relationship now. i cant even joke about it anymore. it sucks.

i should still be with this guy. but im not because im dumb. really poopin dumb. i took his kiss virginity too, and it was awesome and hilarious at the same time. we went out for 6 monthes and only kissed once (which i thought was respectable, as opposed to my last 'ship)we used to go on dates on world of warcraft and that was also pretty cool. he let me go to the ex everyday and that was pretty sweet. and still i was pretty much the worst girlfriend ever. i left him for boy e and that was not cool and not worth it. he's ppretty much the coolest guy i know and we dont talk anymore and i think he hates me and he has a gorgeous, cool girlfriend that works at the bookstore. go insertnamehere :)

k. this one is dumb. no idea what i was thinking, obvs it wasnt very smart. it was just a dumb fling that lasted a week. nowadays he is actually the biggest and most confusing ass i know. and it sucks because i know what an amazing guy he can be, if he respects you. and he doesnt deserve to get more written about him. ha!!


now, it would be so easy to add this guy this kinda cool list. but. see guy c. same type of situation, same lol cheese personality. bad bad bad.
but, there is another guy that i am mildly interested in. we used to be pretty tight franz in middle school, but after the show & driving around with him yesterday im feelin kind of different about him hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

comparisons are easily done once youve had a taste of perfection

i hate this lump in my throat that wont go away thats telling me that i need to cry but i resist because i dont enjoy being emo but thats ridic since i have an emo feelin that this blog post is going to be terribly lame and emo and i just wish i knew what to do with this whole situation which, did i mention? really poopin sucks and i just really wish i had the confidence i used to have when talkin to him because i used to be so cool and then highschool destroyed it and i always seem to attract boys that dont appeal to me but seem to because i realise that ill never have him and ill have to settle for someone else and this other guy is probably going to ask me out tomorrow and i really dont want to but i know ill say yes because im a pushover like that and i do not want to leave for 4 days too much is happening and i have a hole on my pants in the general bum area along with a severe case of 80s mom butt for the play but i can deal because i like to sing but this is turning into a severe case of self pity post and im not too down with that but i still havent made my point which is that no matter how hard i try i will never get over him hes way too awesome and cool sometimes and i dont measure up to anyone hes ever mentioned and it really sucks to have wasted so much time on one person that will never look at me again and all my friends have boyfriend or girlfriends and i could have one but i dont want him like that and i am rainin on allisons parade way too much and i am really really really sorry but life sucks way too much lately and something cool needs to happen

bitch post #24742873247

"i have made a lot of friends and i’ve lost a lot of friends over the past couple years. i think, too, that the past couple years were some of the first times in a while that i’ve felt the burn of other people’s ignorance… a lack of patience and a quickness to judge. it forced me to grow up and realize what’s real. who’s worth the pain and who’s not. "



and yeah, youre not.
you don't deserve a point of view if the only thing you see is you
ps youre still single. hahahahaa :)