comparisons are easily done once youve had a taste of perfection

i hate this lump in my throat that wont go away thats telling me that i need to cry but i resist because i dont enjoy being emo but thats ridic since i have an emo feelin that this blog post is going to be terribly lame and emo and i just wish i knew what to do with this whole situation which, did i mention? really poopin sucks and i just really wish i had the confidence i used to have when talkin to him because i used to be so cool and then highschool destroyed it and i always seem to attract boys that dont appeal to me but seem to because i realise that ill never have him and ill have to settle for someone else and this other guy is probably going to ask me out tomorrow and i really dont want to but i know ill say yes because im a pushover like that and i do not want to leave for 4 days too much is happening and i have a hole on my pants in the general bum area along with a severe case of 80s mom butt for the play but i can deal because i like to sing but this is turning into a severe case of self pity post and im not too down with that but i still havent made my point which is that no matter how hard i try i will never get over him hes way too awesome and cool sometimes and i dont measure up to anyone hes ever mentioned and it really sucks to have wasted so much time on one person that will never look at me again and all my friends have boyfriend or girlfriends and i could have one but i dont want him like that and i am rainin on allisons parade way too much and i am really really really sorry but life sucks way too much lately and something cool needs to happen