i cant take it, i have ta write in here.
i am currently being overwhelmed by newfound emotions. it is quite literally KILLING me. i think part of me will be content with informing anonymous readers of my never before heard rants.
im so sick of being NICE and GOOD all the time. everybody ends up taking advantage of it by being extremely mean to me, including what i considered my closest friends. they know they can get away with it because its not like id ever think of sticking up for myself, right? i dont ever want to start 'drama' or conflict with my friends, so i usually stay quiet.
this isnt working yet. i just feel dumb.
does anybody even want me to be nice? theyd probs enjoy my company more if i was loud and obnoxious like mike and xavier.
you know what guys?
ive never liked being (hilariously) ignored by everyone
and not once did i appreciate you telling me that nobody cares (you guys are so hilarious).
harold, you have to stop trying to be like everybody else and find youself. and stop picking such asshole like people to act like. you can actually be an awesome guy when you're not trying to be someone else. i cant understand you. but i suppose thats why i find you so captivating, you're so hard to figure out, when everyone else is so effortless for me.
i still feel dumb.
and for the first time in a while, a little..bad.
i've never really wrote about my feelings, and displaying them for everyone to see on the internet is defs rebelious to the extreme.
party on!!!
*names have been changed
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