i still try, holding onto silly things, i never learn

sometimes, i dont like my life.

firstly, the cds that people have so generously burned for me have been collecting dust because my computer (which is a bit on the ancient side) refuses to open it's portal thing for me!!!

2ndly- i haven't spent a saturday night without (or with allison :( i hate living in poopville ) the band in agesssssssssss n stuff. but last night i found myself playing ball with suki, eating all the girl guide cookies (chocolate!!!! \m/) among other pitiful activities. so, this allowed me to realize that kortni was hanging with taylor, chase was with aly, david was with tiff. mandy was with her imaginary boyfriend. so is it really that sad that i'm the only one left without a boyfriend? my plan for this year was to not get involved with anyone (with one exception) so i could focus on my music and gradez. i even used that as an excuse a few times to get out of some boyish situations. (my favorite still remains the good ol 'im pregnant....' which always omits hilarious results) anyways, it's no big deal. i was just thinking that i'm so over the whole FOCUS ON MY STUDIES thing, who does that??? so boys, line up. im open for business. (gtfo dirty mind)

LASTLY. in general i have been very bored this weekend. i was organising my smarties, eating the blue ones last. when i was done, i folded the box neatly beside the keyboard. it was then that i spotted the matches. matches are so neat. they make fire. so i had the brill idea of lighting my smarties box on fiyah, just like your sex. once i was satisfied, i threw the charred remnants in the trash..............................which started burning because i didnt put the dang fire out.

i was sent to my room.